Hi. This page is dedicated to labels.

This summer has been my time for trying to discover who I am. Don't get scared and go away this won't be some stupid soul searching crap. Anyway, because I feel that I am morbid and somewhat in touch with my darker side I originally decided to be goth. I liked the style and I felt the sadness. I also went to a couple of goth sites that made me feel the need to be 'goth.' But I was not prepared to change mayself and my parents and esspecially my mother, a very good christian woman, were not very happy with my decision. I didn't want to say I was 'goth' and then not really feel that way or have people doubt me. There was still the urge to have a label even though I myself do not like them, they seem to be what teenage life is centered around. A friend gave me the idea that not having one label could be my label. I thought this was interesting so I started to think about it. I'm really into German so I decided to call it null. Which means zero in German. You could take it that I am a zero and that it means I have no one label. I think everyone is more than one thing, but society or peers push them to one side. I have nothing horrible against labels. I still feel that the preps are preps and the freaks are freaks, but labels are starting to exclude so many people. Prep and freak are very general, but when you get down to it. When you really try to have a label for every person, you end up with noone having the same label. OK, HERE'S WHERE IT GETS BAD. When I first started this label thing even though I didn't want there to be restrictions I knew there had to be for it to really be a label. I made up three. One, you had to feel like somewhat of a loser. Two, you had to be somewhat alternative and three, you had to have a darker side that seperated you from everyone else. That was my decision. I didn't think it was too much, I still don't, but one of my bestfriends told me that if she was going to be 'null' she wanted it to be opened to all. I really don't want that. There are certain people that I don't like and that I don't want to be around. So really. I don't know. Tell me what u think . ok, i'm done.